life tonight: packing, cleaning, wine, the signal with my girl @CBCTheSignal, more packing and more wine.

Twice - Little Dragon

(this is one of my favourite songs)

Klapp Klapp - Little Dragon

My friends are the most creative, kind & genuine people you could meet. Brooke made me this incredible inspiration board - I can't wait to hang it in my new space!! 

Love is soft,
Love’s a fucking bitch
Do I really need
Another habit like you?

MS - Alt J

"Find your best self and hold on to it for dear life"

Lindsay gave me quite possibly the greatest gift of all time.

things i'm loving lately (dec 27 2014)

- the time i got to spend with my family over the holidays. my soul needed it & my heart loved it.
- our new house!!
- my new crock pot, wine glasses, rather large LCBO gift card (insert heart-eyed emoji) & new blender/juicer.
- this kitchen.
- this song.
- how dead the gym has been over the holidays.
- clementines.
- that brooke and melanie will be here in a matter of days.
- feeling happy again.
- anything carrie bradshaw has ever said.
- holidays!! not having to work is blissful.
- really nice pairs of shoes on sale for 10$.
- meeting real men.
- old photographs of my grandparents.
- winning scratch tickets!!

i hope each of you had a lovely holiday!
xx rach

After Ur Gone - Alex G

life is beautiful.

Xo

Hangover Days - Jason Collett & Feist

is it January yet?

Love Like A Sunset - Phoenix

this is my favourite Phoenix song.

Long Distance Call - Phoenix

accurate.

lol

Inch of Dust - Future Islands

happy birthday mama. i love you xo

Do You.. - Miguel

Cruel - Operators

(February 6th!!)

Orator - Baths

I've been binge re-watching Sex & The City lately - the original GIRLS. Carrie and the gals are so much more relatable now that I'm 25 and not 21. Here are some of my favourite quotes/looks/awesomeness:

  

Head Underwater - Jenny Lewis

my favourite album of twenty fourteen was by the baddest bitches around 

Just Like Honey - The Jesus And Mary Chain

serendipity.

What’s been happening with me behind the scenes….

The past three or so weeks of my life have been weird and emotional. Aside from it being Christmas and having to spend time with family that I’m not so close with, I recently got out of an almost year long relationship with someone who I think I really loved. It had to happen – our happiness had faded away due to the stresses of life and not being able to see each other as often as we’d like. Life goes on and I’ll be okay. I’m sure he will be as well.

I was friends with this individual for quite some time before we started dating. He was someone who mesmerized me – his intelligence and warm personality always left me feeling in awe and important. Unfortunately, when a friendship turns into a romantic relationship, it doesn’t always turn out like you had hoped it would. You start to see qualities in each other that you wish you didn’t see, and insecurities tend to take precedence. You realize that love is a strong word and as much as you may love someone, being in love with someone is a completely different realm. People handle things differently in life and sometimes you cannot hold that against them. I am by nature a happy person but unfortunately I haven’t been for a while. For months I’d find myself sitting up at night trying to convince myself that I was happy and life was blissful. Why was I lying to myself?

This whole experience has shook me to my core. What I’ve decided is I need to be happy with myself and the person who I am before I can truly love someone. I needed to find a therapist I could vent to (check). I needed to laugh again. (check) I need to dance, and cook, and design things that I love, use my camera, keep going to the gym, be a better friend, and work on family relationships. I need to reset. (check!) 

Overall – I would say that I’m 80% better then where I was at 3 weeks ago. I still feel let down in a sense, but hopefully that will pass. As I’ve mentioned in a previous post, I’m moving in the New Year. I’ve also decided that this year, I will be stepping away from my current career and enrolling in school full time. I never finished what I truly wanted to finish in school and I’m going to finally do that. I am beyond terrified but deeply excited.

I am no longer on Facebook or Instagram, so continue checking back here for music (always), inspirations & little updates on my life!

Xx Rach

Enemies - Hannah Georgas

Show Me Your Fears - Pony Girl (Full Album)

This album is unreal. I cannot stop listening to it. Enjoy xx

holidaze

 

Low Key - Tweedy

space is only noise

De Algún Instinto Animal - Juana Molina (I love this song)

You In Your Were - Kevin Drew Ft Feist

new beginnings..

I took the day off to pack up my apartment. Lots of coffee, a few good albums and lots of memories. I'm sad to be leaving my little space, but beyond ready for a change (and in suite laundry!!)

It's been an interesting year to say the least. I'm ready change. I'm ready for 2015.

Xx Rach

Heart Shaped Birthmark - Tei Shi

I am obsessed with this song

dream like

Dundas, Ontario - Manitoba

Bird of Prey - Natalie Prass

"Muscle Memory"

After having spent the fast year
Waiting for the next time I can get you close
I grew used to being back here
Like a chorus and rhyme, soldier at his post

You call and I respond, the sparrow and the song
I miss you when you’re gone

When I am alone, I see you in the dark
I talk into the empty like you were with me
Started on a cold night, felt you in the low light
Noticing a reflex taking over me
I see you when I reach
Muscle memory

Again, off into the next fall
I am on the back steps trying to let you in
See you standing in the front hall
Maybe this is madness underneath my skin

Guess love is the response of the body it haunts
And we do what it wants

When I am alone, I see you in the dark
I talk into the empty like you were with me
Started on a cold night, felt you in the low light
Noticing a reflex taking over me
I see you when I reach
Muscle memory
I feel you endlessly
Muscle memory

When you feel the chains of a thousand words
And I speak your name like I know you heard
I can feel you there, I can hear you move
And it moves me, too

And I’m playing games and I’m drinking wine
And I see your glass sitting next to mine
I can feel you there when you’re not at home
Like I’m not alone

When I am alone, I see you in the dark
I talk into the empty like you were with me
Started on a cold night, felt you in the low light
Noticing a reflex taking over me
I see you when I reach
Muscle memory
I feel you endlessly
Muscle memory

Half Moon Run - Full Circle